“I’m more than just a mommy.” That statement is so simple on paper, but it has been the most difficult sentence to pronounce out loud since I became a mother. I was so excited to be a mom. I was lucky enough to take six months off work to stay home with Collin, so I could dedicate myself to him for that short while – at my own expense.
I returned to work weighing more than I wanted (because I didn’t want to leave my baby to go to the gym). I felt sad and disappointed, because I didn’t feel like I had truly relaxed or taken care of myself during my maternity leave, and I didn’t really know who I was anymore. I left work as a childless married woman, and returned a working mother, left to bear the realities of trying to forget my child during the workday while juggling that part of my life when I got home. Before Collin, it seemed my greatest worry was figuring out what takeout I wanted for dinner or what TV show I wanted to watch after work – at least that’s how it seemed in hindsight.
Two and a half years after returning to work, I’ve learned a lot about myself and working motherhood. I’ve learned how to wear many hats at once. Some days I’m a master at it and other days I feel like a complete failure. Overall, I just try to be the best mom I can be, while remembering that I’m also a wife, a co-worker, and I still have interests of my own. I have friends and I love to work out – and sometimes it’s important to get in that “me time.”
Collin is now 3 years old, and while I love spending time with him, I know it’s important to schedule the occasional girls night out (at a local painting or pottery place), and sometimes I just need to go to the store by myself. I relish date nights with my husband and take joy in the fact that I’m a working mom. I’m making a difference both at work and at home, and for me, I’m a better person for it.
What do you do to get out of the house and be “more than a mommy”?